Hello, Dear Ones! Right up front I want to apologize for being gone so long. It was not intentional. I'll try to briefly tell you what has been going on with me.
I had a terrible bout with high blood pressure - I mean really really high blood pressure - and spent a couple of nights in the hospital as they tried to get it down to a point I could go home. Finally, they got it down. This was in May.
I came home with meds to take to try and get my blood pressure under control and was taking my blood pressure constantly.
I failed to say the reason for my high blood pressure was simply FEAR. Yes, fear. I went to a doctor for a test and I knew I was nervous but when they took my blood pressure, the nurse said - go to the emergency room! Mr. Precious was with me and we went. So that's how I got here.
After weeks of meds, adjusting meds and adding new meds my blood pressure is finally under control. Praise God!
But, in the mean time I starting having such anxiety and that scared me to death! I have a really calm, easy going personality and have never dealt with anxiety like this before. So I texted my doctor and they sent me some non addicting drugs to help me.
This has been a real battle for me. The meds have helped. Of course they made me feel really sleepy at first. I looked online and have learned breathing exercises to help when I feel the anxiety mounting and have found that walking around the house for about 10 minutes have really helped me.
As a Christian, I've prayed, recited all the scriptures I can remember and have really tried to give this all to the Lord. Some days have felt great - others not so much.
This fear has hindered my life as I have been fearful to get out of the house. That is getting better as a friend told me to set a goal for myself to get out once a day. So I'm doing that.
At times I have what I call 'waves of anxiety'. The anxiousness starts and I feel really jittery for a few seconds, it goes away and comes back in a few minutes. That seems to have gotten better in the past few days.
I didn't want to write this post for you to feel sorry for me, just to be honest and tell you why I haven't felt like blogging. I so enjoy visiting you all and having you come visit me and I want to start again.
I know I'm going to kick this and I'm ready to get back to living my life.
Be a bunch of sweeties, Shelia :)
I'll leave you with a little Note Song ~
If I Could Just Sit With You Awhile
When I can not feel
When my wounds don't heal
Lord, I humbly kneel
Hidden in You
Lord, You are my life
So I don't mind to die
Just as long as I am
Hidden in You
If I could just sit with You awhile
If You could just hold me
Nothing could touch me
Though I'm wounded, though I die
If I could just sit with You awhile
I need You to hold me
Moment by moment
'Til forever passes by
When I know I've sinned
When I should have been
Crying out, "My God"
And hidden in You
Lord, I need You now
More than I know how
So I humbly bow
Hidden in You
If I could just sit with You awhile
If You could just hold me
Nothing could touch me
Though I'm wounded, though I die
If I could just sit with You awhile
I need You to hold me
Moment by moment
'Til forever passes by
If I could just sit with You awhile
I need You to hold me
Moment by moment
'Til forever passes by
Moment by moment
'Til forever passes by
~ sung by Dennis Jernigan